It’s a brand new year, and I’ve never really been big on making “New Year Resolution’s” only because I never (and I mean, NEVER) follow through with them. For instance, one year I told my self I would read the entire Bible and by the end of that year I had only read the New Testament and the first eight books of the Old (which fyi, I had no idea what was going on!). So I stopped “resoluting” for a while.
Anyway, 2013 was by far the toughest years I’ve had. It was the first year Kyle and I were together, spending.every.single.minute.together with a baby. I prayed and prayed, and still pray for patience. The ugly that I knew that resided within, finally came out and I am ashamed for the things I said and for the things I done. I feel so guilty for feeling overwhelmed 95% of the time. Then I take it out on people I love most. Why can’t I just be kind and forgiving? Then I realized, I was blaming other people for the way I felt. Time and time again, be it a movie, facebook, an article, a story-“You are responsible for your own happiness”. Stop blaming other people. I started to begin living that philosophy and I did find myself being more at peace and contempt in the season I was in. It’s not perfect, but it’s a teeny bit better than two months ago. I also am still struggling with feeling guilty whenever I’m away from my son, you know like when the hubs and I go out on a date. Or when I want to draw or read a book. But I also found out that I am a lot happier when I do make time for myself, and that in turn makes me a much nicer wife and mother.
So, instead of making “New Year” resolutions, I have decided to make “Lifetime” resolutions, but not exactly all the way, like a “bucket list”-and hey, if it doesn’t work out the way it’s supposed to I’m not going to beat myself up for not following through. At least I tried right?
-Wear less make-up, and invest in a good skincare line. If you know me, make-up and hair was basically my life for a while. But I’m finding it more and more of an inconvenience nowadays. I don’t want to let myself go though, hubs loves me with make-up on but he also likes it when I have less of it on too. I can let go of wearing eye shadow and contouring my face. If I have time, why not though? (Less make-up=more time to do other things!)
-Draw, Draw, Draw!!! Drawing has definitely become one of my passions. I wish I had more time to do it. So I am going to make time for it! I’ll be taking intermediate drawing classes this Spring. *Remember: Happy moms=nicer moms. Also, not to feel guilty!
-Make my husband my #1 priority. Yes I said it, my husband over my child. I read an amazing article a few months ago on my friends facebook (I’ll post the article on a different post.) I say, just read the article to know where I’m coming from.
-Do not buy clothes in 2014. This one is going to be tough, but I just recently looked in “our” closet and it is just overflowing with clothes that I have worn once or never have. Hubs has a little corner of five polo shirts, while my clothes are literally drowning on top of one another. Quality over quantity!
-Live under means but in a desirable location. I love my city. It is truly a blessing to be living in California. But there has been so many times I’ve considered living in Michigan, housing is so ridiculously affordable and you get the whimsical woodsy scene. But I hate the cold! We could be saving over $500 monthly living in a 1 bedroom and in a nicer area!
-Join a woman’s study and stick with it! I am so truly beyond blessed to be a part of an amazing church. I admire my pastor and all the families that attend. I have met so many amazing Godly women at my church, and I need to be more apart of it. I had so many opportunities to have mentors but I missed them all! My church family must also be a part of my top priorities.
-Not to sweat the “small stuff”. I am a perfectionist to the core. It is my achilles heel. It’s also been the culprit for a lot of my arguments with the hubs. I like dishes put a “certain way”, pillows fluffed, I get into the nitty gritty details, and honestly I’ve realized how stupid it is to freak out about such things that aren’t important. They are not important.
-Finish reading “Anna Karenina”. Lol.
I know the list is short, but these are the ones that I’ve been thinking about. If there’s any more, I might share. I hope you all find things that you might want to achieve in the upcoming year and achieving them! But for now, happy new year and I hope your year stays happy throughout!